Healing Is More Important

Currently, I’m deferred from my university course. All my life, I had this structure set out for my future; primary school, high school, university, etc. My younger self couldn’t even fathom the thought of even taking a gap year to travel the world, no matter how much I wanted to, no matter how much I needed to.

In April, I found myself crying in a hospital bed, submitting my application to defer from my nutrition science course, because I knew I couldn’t prioritise my healing over my studies.

As much as I aspire to be that dietitian that I was privileged to have for my recovery, I knew it was time to finally focus on my own healing before learning how to assist others. One day, I will be able to look back and be proud of myself for prioritising my own personal healing, and I will be able to work with clients to reach their own recovery goals.

Recovery and healing needs all of our focus sometimes, and although it can be heartbreaking to come upon this realisation, I know I made the right decision, and I know that this doesn’t make me weak, because it takes true strength to prioritise ourselves in a society that drills into us what our futures should look like, and this is one thing that I will never regret.